My best friend since secondary one still does not know that i smoke :\ But i guess i'll have to tell her sooner or later huh. You are a great person ivy, you just have to believe that, and everything will be just the way you wanted it to be. That's how i appear to be happy all the time, it's cause i don't show others if i'm sad,i don't want the people around me,or the people who care for me, to be sad as well :)
Sigh, i feel exactly the same way as the person feels when i read sad posts on lj...i don't know why,haha!

Anyway, I love lj! It's kinda like my private space to let everything out when i need to.

Have you ever tried to stop smoking ? Thankyou (: Its just that lack of self confidence in me sometimes, I guess.
It must have been hard on you, trying to put on a facade all the time (: Let your feelings be shown; you only live once.

Sure (: Post here anonymously anytime you want. I like reading others' spaces as well ♥

idk why. things just bothers me. sometimes i really find i need a someone t be there for me. but whn i thought i found one, it's always not the ideal one..but then i alrdy felt attached to that person, that leaving or ignoring that person will make me feel empty at heart and even, sad. i rly dunno what else i can do alr. this is bad, it's killin me. i wonder how can i get detached from 1 easily? i've been hurt more than once, n tht feeling sucks..thou i knw it is part of life, sigh.

Hi again (on a lighter note).
Are you talking about a guy ? Well .. if it was a guy, just take it slow. If he doesnt reciprocate the feelings, so be it then ! Dont give up for the rest of a forest just for a tree. I felt that way too in the past .. but I just build on barriers that guards me against people which isnt a good method frankly speaking (it makes you guard against EVERYONE). The only way I can think of is to just dont sink in too deeply into any relations.
Like you say, thats part of life. "Life is a bed of roses" is so NOT true.

Thank you for listening. (L)

Anytime.

A very beloved boyfriend or a first love whom you truly miss?

What about him ?